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Thursday, 6 July 2006
A Year
Mood:  sad
Topic: Random Stuff
One year ago today, my family's life changed forever. One year ago today, my brother, my only sibling, lost the battle with whatever demons he was fighting. He took his own life. And we'll never be the same.

The ironic part is that every other aspect of my life is drastically better than it was a year ago. So much so, that this morning when I woke up, the only thing that was on my mind was what all I needed to do to get ready for our camping trip this weekend. I'd been dreading this day for a couple of months now, and it took my husband calling me this morning to ask how I was doing to remind me that this was the day.

A little part of me felt so guilty that Scott wasn't the first thing that popped into my head when I woke up, but then I decided that maybe that's how it should be. I've grieved and mourned and cried so much. And I'm sure I'll shed some more tears before the day is through. But I'm thankful that I've got a full and happy life to lead that keeps me from dwelling on the sadness.

I just wish Scott had felt the same way a year ago. I miss you bubby. Rest in peace.

Posted by catherino at 4:51 PM PDT
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Thursday, 6 July 2006 - 9:27 PM PDT

Name: "Jennifer"

I'm sending good thoughts, Cathy. 

Sunday, 9 July 2006 - 5:06 PM PDT

Name: "Anonymous"

I try to keep in mind the impact on family and loved ones when I feel like Scott must have. Thank you for writing your feelings.

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